Marchesa Notte Lace Dress c/o Clotheshorse Anonymous (similar lace dress, I’ve linked a lot of cute lace dresses below too!) | Teal Blazer (old; very similar teal blazer) | Stud Earrings (old, love these rose gold stud earrings) | Black Suede Flats (love these similar black flats too!) | Deborah Lippmann Nail Lacquer in Brick House (sold out, similar nail polish)Today, I wanted to touch on the topic of worry. Lately, I’ve been working extremely hard on not worrying. My anxiety and stress is so bad to a point where I don’t sleep enough because I’m up late thinking about the future and trying my best to think of a plan of what’s going to happen next. (Yep, I do this even though I know God is the one who controls my future. Anyone else guilty?) I wake up in the morning super groggy, wishing I could stay in bed and sleep my worries away. Instead, like many of us, I head into work (even though I don’t want to) because I know money doesn’t magically show up in my bank account. And throughout the day, I’m nodding off between emails. Yeah, it’s that bad. I usually deal with what’s on my heart by blogging about my experiences so today, I wanted to talk about where I’m at with worry and tomorrow, I’ll go into a little bit more depth. It’s easy to say, “Don’t worry, be happy!” yet at the same time, we worry over a lot of things in our lives. I will say there are two major things humans are constantly worrying about: health and finances. Would you agree? I believe that the relationship between both are synonymous in terms of the emotions it brings to people. We’re either worried about our/our family’s health or our/our family’s finances or worried about both. It makes sense because if we work so much to a point where we don’t take care of ourselves, we’ll spend money on our health anyway. For me, I’m worried about both right now. I work in front of a computer for my day job and go home and work in front of my cell phone on my side hustle to cover my finances. However, with the rise in cost of living (rent is SO ridiculous these days), it’s been extremely hard to keep up. So many thoughts and questions arise in my mind. “I need a better paying job.” “But I like the people I work with…” “If I look, where do I look next? What company? Position?” Then the stress rises. My friend Tori told me something the other day that makes a lot of sense. “Sometimes you don’t want to work out to burn off the calories you have consumed because then, you’d be hungry and that’s just more money for groceries.” Wow, isn’t that the truth? It makes me wonder, how many people are doing this consciously because they’re living paycheck to paycheck? Knowing that working out is good for you, but not doing it because it’s costing you financially? If you know me, you’d know that I’m usually happy, self-motivated and positive about 98% of the time. For me to write this blog post is unusual, even for me. I mean, after all, this blog is about positivity, leadership and passion. I’m proof that even for the most happiest people, they can still have their down days dealing with stress and anxiety. It’s been a huge learning curve for me to realize that it’s okay for someone who’s usually positive to worry and be down, even if it’s for a little bit. We’re all humans, you know?
Do you tend to worry a lot?If so, what do you worry about? Stay tuned for tomorrow’s post where I’ll go into how I’m dealing with worry.
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